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Friday, January 3rd, 2003
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7:03 pm - lucky
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Last night I went out with the girls to Frankies, 8 of us and we were talking about uni, and stuff and I thought to myself, I'm so lucky. I've got a lovely family who support me and love me so much, who gave me the chance to be out of debt by saving up so I don't have to get a loan. A family who don't suffocate me and let me do what makes me happy, and give me the feeling that I'm not alone when things get rough, no judging, just hugs and kisses. My friend Sarah heard me talking to my parents on the phone when we were trampolining in Warick, and she said to me and said" I never say I love you to my parents!" and she was amazed that I did. Its normal for me I guess, I've just been brought up in a household which do that kinda thing! I've got an amazing boyfriend who loves me through thick and thin, who compliments me all the time and is the type of angel where I don't doubt myself. Hes my guardian angel and I'm so thankful to have him in my life. He also brought to me my second family. People teased me over christmas that I was gonna have 2 christmases, but they were right, I did. They are my second family, and they also give me love and support. If it wasn't for them, I wouldn't have just got my essay done!lol:-) Not to mention the most gorgeous dog on this planet, shes like a star around here! leeeah poohs! I'm healthy, fit, a size which I'm happy about, and in a uni which I worked my butt to get into, my own car(with a swinging elvis!lol). I've got friends who even though I don't see much now because of uni, we still all love each other and would drop anything if something was wrong. we are all there for eachother, they have special unique qualities and I love everyone of them! I'm cheesy I know, but if you feel this good, I think people should know! :-) Thankyou.
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| Friday, December 20th, 2002
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2:10 pm
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1:47 pm - Another one to add to our collection!
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The world is changing
and time is spinning fast
it's so amazing how you came into my life
I know it seems all hope is gone
I know you feel you can't be strong
and once again the story ends with you and I
And anytime you feel like you just can't go on
just hold on to my love
and you'll never be alone
Hold on
we can make it through the fire
and my love
I'm forever by your side
and you know
if you should ever call my name
I'll be right there
you'll never be alone
Hopeless to describe
the way I feel for you
no matter how I try
words would never do
I looked into your eyes to find
as long as love is alive
there ain't nothing we can't make it through
Anytime, or only for a while
don't worry
make a wish
I'll be there to see you smile
Hold on
we can make it throught the fire
and my love
I'm forever by your side
and you know
if you should ever call my name
I'll be right there
you'll never be alone
Through the fire, by your side
I will be there for you so I'm, don't you worry
(and you know, I'll be there)
you'll never be alone
Hold on
we can make it through the fire
and my love
I'm forever by your side
and you know
if you should ever call my name
I'll be right there
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| Sunday, December 15th, 2002
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4:31 pm - christmas and kisses time!
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Nearly christmas! yay! I was tellin my mam and dad that I wasn't so much looking forward to having my presents but to give my presents to people who I love and see their faces! My dad is living up the tradition of having an extra surprise on chrismas day, who knows what he will do this year! He always gets us something that we never expect and its usually something fab! My mam said I'l be excited so thats cool! Met up with the girlies last night. Was supposed to go to whetherspoons but we decided just to go up Nezzies house instead and have girlie night there! was nice to see them all and hear all their stories and talk about old times again. Its nice to know you've got best friends from when you were little and that they are there for you, even if they are miles away! Its been a busy time at uni! what with the trampolining competition in Warick and singing in Llandaff Cathedral this thursday(which was so amazing!). I love being part of a fab choir and actually hearing each individual harmony parts blend together,oooo, gives me goose bumps! Been tough tho having to fit everything in, what with assignments and stuff! "Welcome to the real world! Its sucks! you'll love it!"
current mood:  complacent
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| Saturday, October 19th, 2002
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12:19 pm
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took my hand,
touch my heart,
held me close,
you were always there ,by my side,
night and day,
through it all,
baby come what may,
swept away on a wave of emotion,
oh were caught in the eye of a storm,
and whenever you smile,
i can hardly believe that your mine,
believe that your mine.
this love is unbreakable,
its unmistakable,
and each time i look in your eyes,
i know why,
this love is untouchable,
i feel in my heart just cant deny,
each time i look in your eyes ohh baby,
i know why,
this love is unbreakable.
share the laughter,
share the tears,
we both know,
we`ll grow old from here,
cause together,we are strong,
in my arms,thats where you belong,
i`ve been touched by the hands of an angel,
i`ve been blessed by the power of love,
and whenever you smile,
i can hardly believe that your mine.
this love is unbreakable,
its unmistakable,
each time i look in your eyes,
i know why,
this love is untouchable,
i feel in my heart just cant deny,
each time you whisper my name ohh baby
i know why.
this love is unbreakable,
through fire and flames,
when all this is over,
our love still remains.
this love is unbrekable,
its unmistakable,
each time i look in your eyes,
i know why,
this love is untouchable,
i feel in my heart just cant deny,
each time you whisper my name ohh baby,
i know why.
cause each time i look in your eyes ohh baby,
i know why,
this love is unbreakable.
current mood: In love
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| Thursday, October 10th, 2002
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6:44 pm - Swimfan
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Went to see Swimfan yesterday....good film. Scary mind how art imitates reality! Obviously you know the plot; watching it I thought how creepy it was to see someone plotting to destroy a relationship. But then I guess its not all that un-common. It was quite scary how the past can suddenly come rushing back to you, haunting you again. But thats just it... the past is the past and thats where some people are best left. I wouldn't swap now for anything. Things just get better and better.
current mood: spooked
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| Friday, September 20th, 2002
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9:26 pm
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Joey Potter
Your Character: You're a hard worker, and you do your best not to let anyone know how just how smart you are. You avoid the spotlight - after all, you're afraid if you get too proud, it might jinx you. Because in spite of your talent and ability, you're jaded enough to be certain that something awful is just lurking around the corner. With a gift for detached sarcasm and a flair for the ironic, you could easily command the attention of a room, yet your inherent self-doubt often leaves you tongue-tied in spite of your verbal excellence. Your girl/boy-next-door charm makes you irresistible to the opposite sex… but they're likely to be your downfall. You can't bear to hurt anyone, and you tend to give into your fears of rejection by avoiding confrontation at all costs. Your lack of pretension and your natural beauty are your greatest strengths.
Bottom Line: You're selfless, loyal, and creative. All of these are great qualities, but you might want to try to add honesty to your list of assets as you have a habit of letting it fall by the wayside when the going gets tough. And don't be so afraid of the unknown… some of the best parts of life are the surprises.
Character Defining Quote:
"I have so much conviction about waiting 'til the right moment. Not feeling guilty or obligated. And I don't and he's been great. But I still feel like this angry animal that's ready to bite off the head of anyone or anything that challenges my fragile sense of the universe."
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| Sunday, September 15th, 2002
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1:19 pm - #Goodbye my friends#
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Last night was, well an emotional one at that. All my family came over for this posh do bbq my Daddy did up(he was a chef!)for me going away, but what really started me off was when my mam tried to make a realy nice speach but instead ending up crying instead, but still, I'll never forget it. Then we had champangne and it was all filmed by Dawson(!).:-) Elise came round later and gave me a card along with my otherones saying how much I meant to her, but the one which really set me off into a pool of water was Lou's letter to me. Thanks Lou, I really did cry for ages after that. Friday night was the best, we really are close girls! thanks for everything, you're my stars! Keep in touch sugar plums!xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
current mood:  touched
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| Tuesday, September 10th, 2002
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7:23 pm
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I've been doing a lot of thinking recently. Thinking about how things change, the past, the future and where I am now.It seems right now there is so many things that make you stop and think. For example, I was driving home through Blackwood on Sunday night, passing lots of people who are out having a "good time". It was quite sad really, all those people kidding themselves that they were happy, that they were doing something worthwhile. But in truth they couldn't have been more wrong. they seem to think that drinking themselves silly and having a quick, adolescent grope is what life is all about. Maybe when your 16, but they are supposed to be a bit mature by now. Don't they know how cliched they look. for if only they knew what it was like to be truly happy. The sad thing is I don't think they will ever know. Some people might say that I am talking crap here but at least I can look at myself in the mirror without seeing someone staring back at me who sold out for that quick grope. I've come to realise that I have things that many of them will never really know... my pride, my dignity, a family who stand by me through everything, my future planned out, a guy who loves me more than this whole world, the truest friends. Its taken me almost 18 years to realise it....out of all those people I saw...when it comes down to it...I'm the winner.
current mood:  grateful
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| Tuesday, September 3rd, 2002
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5:52 pm
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ooo, one more thing-I LOVE YOU MY BOO MUFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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5:45 pm - not another high school party .....lol
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last nights party was brill! The after math wasn't so good, but hey, it never is! quite an emotional night to be honest, but it was good, because people found out who they could count on and things were said which made me quite relieved to be honest, i'm not the only one thinking that!!yay! Last night made me realise more so that I'm so not alone in what I think about things and feel about stuff etc, I felt the complete opposite, so that was a highlight for me! a LOT of action took place too!hehe! lou, one thing to say to you girl WELL DONE!! about time it happened too! lol "hot stuff" My falling over walking down the texaco garage at 2 in the morning was an overall entertainment starter for the rest of the evening! Thanks for cleaning me up girlies, your the best, even if we did pee our pants laughing at my doofy ways! lol Well its one I won't forget too soon!:-)
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| Monday, August 26th, 2002
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1:34 pm - :-)
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I don't need a lot of things, I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring, I've always needed something,
But I've got all I want and it comes to loving you
You're my only reason
You're my only truth
I need you like water, like breath , like rain
I need you like mercy from heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms that carries me through
I need you
You're the hope that moves me
To courage again
You're the love that rescues me
When the cold winds rage
And it's so amazing
'Cause that's just how you are
And I can't turn back now
Cause you've brought me too far
Sticks and stones may break our bones
But words can never hurt us :-) again.
current mood: loved
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| Saturday, August 17th, 2002
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12:58 pm - #I Its got to beeeeeeeeeee, PERFECT! :-)
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Hey! Wow, i'm so behind on this thing!! Where was I ??!! After I wrote that, me and my boo booked a holiday to Spain! We arrived at the airport, not knowing where we were goin to stay as it was one of those, allocate on arrival deals, so there was me stressing that we wouldn't have air con and it would be a dump! well, we got a whole lot more than air con, let me tell you!! We ended up in a 4 star hotel with 3 pools, all food included, 9 tennis courts, jacuzi, THE LOT! and I mean, THE LOT! we found ourselves that very evening walking across white sands under the moonlight, which was like 5 minutes walk from where we were staying, not to mention where all the shops were! I was gob smacked-and here is the real heart stopper-for £290 baby!!!wooohoo!!!!! so we did all the usual things, some which I can't say(hehehe!)! then we met up with my family as they were staying in this swanky resort, which was the hotel that Universal Studios Port Aventura owned so they could just walk intot he park! The actual park was fab, there wasn't one ride I disliked, but it was extremely hot! I guess i shouldn't have complained tho, as I come back with a bronzed look! Kinda faded now tho! boo hoo!
Um, nothing really happened after that, only I had the house for 2 weeks to myself which was nice. Then, results day- I was a mess, big time! People must have thought I was on drugs because all I was doin was crying, and this was before I opened them!!:-) Then, I did it, opened them and I saw I had exceded the results I needed and the first thing I screamed was "UWIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!" so, you can gather where I'm goin in September now! I'm so excited, finally I'm gonna do what I've dreamed about since I was old enough to think. Back in the days where I got my teddy bears sat them in a circle and read to them and took a register! lol bless! xx
current mood:  accomplished
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| Wednesday, July 17th, 2002
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11:27 am - My vocation in life..........
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For the last 3 weeks or more I've been helping out in Baden Powell Primary and to be honest " I don't need to go to UWIC to be a fab teacher" quote the headmaster! Well if he is impressed with me, then the rest of them can stuff it! :-) I've had such a fab time and I'm gonna miss it soo much! I've literally got my own class and I' know all the kids names and everyday they want to practice singing with me for the concert! we had our dress rehersal yesterday and boy, did they do well! I was soooo prooud of them and so chufted that I got them to sound and act like that! I got quite emotional! The best part was seeing how happy they were, compared to the other choir who were hand picked and taught by this, frankly CRAP teacher who doesn't give them any encouragement and then comes in to get the glory for her " hard work"! What a cheek! The deputy head and many teachers came up to me after and said what a difference my little music group(who by the way kicked butt!) were at a higher level after two weeks with me, compared to them who had been taught all year! There is the proof right there! They deserve all the praise, thats why I bought them all sweeties!! I'm gonna miss being Miss Duggan! I even made good friends who I trust there surprisngly, which is nice after all this time! Things are goin just right at the moment and I ain't gonna let NOONE take that away from me again, coz believe me, I've got an army now! HA!
current mood: accomplished
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| Wednesday, December 5th, 2001
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6:50 pm - its true....
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Well I kinda had an inckling to who I really thought were my friends and cared about me, but I was very mistaken after, well I won't say when. Well to those of you who hate me so much, "f*** off!" Coz I ain't going anywhere! just can't wait to go to Uni and find friends who do actually give a damn and who I trust, coz I dunno anyone, well2 people, who I can trust fully. Chin up Ca! Just got to be positive I guess, the sooner I get out of "blackwood" the better!
current mood:  aggravated
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| Monday, October 29th, 2001
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8:36 pm - R.E.S.P.E.C.T!
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R.E.S.P.E.C.T, find out what it means to me!
That song actually goes on another level with me now. If any girls are reading this, take a stand for what you want,and not let anyone push you otherwise, coz trust me, when you start letting others take you over, it gets scary, trust me i know. Us women are not respected enough and I'm going to stop that now! can't wait till sat-britters here we come! We are gonna look fiiinnnneee! lol
current mood:  determined
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| Sunday, October 28th, 2001
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9:07 pm
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| Saturday, October 27th, 2001
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3:47 am
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3:23 am - leave me alone.........
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I just wish people out there who has got a grudge against me would leave me alone. I don't deserve this. I 've done nothing wrong. I'm just like any other teenager who is learning and making mistakes. I must come across as being so, well, whatever it is for those of you who want to see me unhappy. Well, maybe one day you'll win, for good. Might be better off for everyone anyway. Anyone compared to me is perfect. Their wrongs is nothing compared to mine. Just leave me alone, all of you. I've done my time. Alb, i want to join you and i miss you so much, help me.
current mood:  distressed
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3:23 am - leave me alone.........
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I just wish people out there who has got a grudge against me would leave me alone. I don't deserve this. I 've done nothing wrong. I'm just like any other teenager who is learning and making mistakes. I must come across as being so, well, whatever it is for those of you who want to see me unhappy. Well, maybe one day you'll win, for good. Might be better off for everyone anyway. Anyone compared to me is perfect. Their wrongs is nothing compared to mine. Just leave me alone, all of you. I've done my time. Alb, i want to join you and i miss you so much, help me.
current mood: distressed
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